i will never forget that feeling. waiting all day on my birthday to hear from you. i know you don’t want a relationship, but i couldn’t even get a birthday text just as a friend? you knew it was my birthday, yet you still went to the bar you knew i’d be at…after not saying anything to me at all that day. i purposely didn’t drink a lot on my birthday because i didn’t want to be super messed up if i got to see you that night - like you promised you would. then seeing you with that girl…gut wrenching. literally fell apart. still haven’t heard from you. hurts like hell.
people ask me how i’ve been as I comb back through my memory, how you said you’d be here, you said you’d be here.